‘Ello there.

I think I have been listening to Ryan Adams’ 1989 too much because I had a dream he came to my house and we hung out. Normal.


I put on my big girl pants (err, bathing suit) and went to the pool today. I am trying to be “good” about recovery and my legs are certainly a little tired from my triumph return to running. The good news is that I didn’t die, and I just kept reminding myself, “You didn’t swim yesterday. Or the day before. You don’t have to swim tomorrow. Or the next day.” And I think that certainly helped. My mental stability is certainly questionable.

Tonight, I am heading to happy hour with some of the girls for a few beverages. It’ll be good to see everyone, it’s been a while since we’ve all hung out.

Tomorrow, I am meeting Jim early for some miles. The rest of our running group is scattered this weekend, but I am happy to get in some running with Jim. Tim and I have a wedding in the afternoon/evening, so that will take up most of the day. I am fairly certain we will know literally no one else there besides the bride and the groom, so that’ll be fun.

On Sunday, I hope to meet the running club for a few miles, and then I am going to be frantically tracking all of my friends running marathons this weekend. I am so excited for everyone.

Today marks four years since I crossed the finish line of my first one.

Maybe if I close my eyes, I'll get there faster

Oh hey, that is me

That was a good day. We will see what the future holds, eh?

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All you had to do was stay

I just cannot express how happy I am to not be swimming every morning. The smell of chlorine is fading, as are the goggle marks I thought were permanent. I thought about maybe swimming still on Mondays and Fridays, but I am just not sure I can bring myself to do it. I hate it that much.

Anyway, this morning, I met my friend Bob for a run. We used to run together on Tuesdays before my tibial decided to be a real asshole. Anyway, he is very fast, but fortunately, he is on a taper, so it was more like taper run for him, speedwork for me. The second thing I missed most about not running (number 1 would be, uh, running) was the people. I really missed the friends I ran with, and, hell, I even missed the people I was used to seeing out running. By the way? It’s real good to be back. REAL SWELL. I enjoyed this morning.

Anyway, I decided to do stitchfix again. For those unfamiliar, you fill out this silly little profile about what kind of style you have and then this company sends you five items of clothing (or accessories). They charge you a $20 styling fee, but if you keep anything, the $20 is deducted from your total. I did it a while ago for a few months, but I ended up canceling it because I really didn’t like anything they sent me.

I decided to reactivate it because I really need clothes, badly, and my one co-worker was raving about it. I really hate shopping and am terrible at it and have literally no style at all. So, I got my box on Monday and everything sucked. I am mad. Please excuse the messiness.

Sweater- $68

Corduroys- $68

The sweater was wide and short and really unflattering. It made me look much heavier. I liked the corduroys and they fit, but they were maroon and I just don’t feel like I could get $68 of wear out of them.

Shirt- $48

I was doing “thumbs down” in this picture, but my eyes were closed, so I cut off my head. I hate this shirt was a fiery passion.

Shirt- $44

I mean this shirt was fine, but it was $44 for a shirt I can’t even wear to work. So, $44 for a shirt to wear to the grocery store? No, that’s what race t-shirts are for.

Dress- $64

I REALLY liked this dress when I pulled it out of the bag, but I hated it on. I think the tie is in the wrong place? I feel like it cut me off at a weird angle. I don’t know, but bleh, I hated it on. I was so disappointed.

Anyway, happy Thursday, let’s get this done.

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I don’t see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me

“Are you SURE there is no pain?”

He started laughing when I assured him over and over again that I am not in any pain and my knee truly hasn’t hurt in weeks, really. And I would forget about it totally, except when I was in the pool, and that was only because I was miserable I was in the pool.

He gave me the okay to run. Deep down, I knew he would, but I was still afraid when I went into his office this morning that he’d say “not quite yet.” I have a tendency to plan for the worst, because I hate being disappointed. And he made me wait FOUR MONTHS for my hip. I don’t know how I did that without my head exploding. Regardless, he gave me the okay, shook my hand, and I told him I hope I don’t see him for a very long time. (I thought “I hope I don’t see you ever again” may sound rude.)

Most people know I am not an after-work exerciser. I used to be, but these days I am all about the pre-dawn grind. When I get home from work, I am TIRED. I want to eat dinner, hang out with Tim, read my book and go to bed by 8. However, last night, I couldn’t wait to get home and get out. It was wonderful. My legs feel so odd. On one hand, they are very fresh, and on the other hand, running is hard, you guys. I am, of course, terribly nervous and find myself repeatedly asking in my brain, “Are you sure it doesn’t hurt?”

The pure joy- and nerves, too, to be honest- I felt this morning when I put on my sneakers instead of a bathing suit and went outside instead of inside that overheated pool I can’t even explain.

It’s sort of like someone flipped a light switch and I am back to myself like that.

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And they remind me of wind up cars in motion

During my lunch break on Friday, I decided to back squat for the first time in oh, 6-7 weeks. I am STILL sore. My legs didn’t know what to think.

After work on Friday, Tim and I hung out with Eric, Cassie and Dawkins, and then retreated home for the newest episode of the Blacklist. James Spader is the man. Anyway, it was an uneventful night. I was so tired from the week, I crawled into bed pretty early with my book. I am re-reading Bag of Bones. I read it a long, long time ago (middle school, maybe?), and I really enjoyed it then, so when I saw it at the book sale for $2 last week, I thought, why not? It’s funny the random things I remember from it.

On Saturday, I woke up to wind, rain and cold. I hiked to the pool, did my thing, ran some errands, went on a walk, and then joined Liz at Nadya’s for some football and day drinking. It was good to see them and hang out. I headed home around 2, hung out with Tim and Dawkins, and then Tim and I dropped off Dawkins and went to fall fest.


I think we will be getting a dog sooner rather than later.

Anyway, we knew a couple at fall fest, so we hung out, enjoying some beer and wings (Tim) and some cider (me). It surely felt like fall! I was glad we got to stop by. Of course, I ate some chips (they were made by the restaurant that catered, not chips from a bag) and then was sick the rest of the night. I give up.

We spent the rest of the night on the couch curled up in sweats and slippers, watching the Notre Dame game. It was the perfect fall night, even if ND lost, and my stomach hurt.

Sunday was a long walk with a little bit of running thrown in, JUST TO SEE. No pain at all, I am happy to report. I am thinking there will be good news tomorrow morning.

Errands, cooking, reading and relaxing complied the rest of Sunday. It was a really great weekend. I love fall.

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Band aids don’t fix bullet holes


This week has felt so long, and I am quite happy it is finally Friday. I had a hair cut last night, and a happy hour Wednesday, so I really am looking forward to a whole lot of nothing over the next two days!

We are dog sitting for our friends Eric and Cassie on Saturday, so we are stopping by their place tonight to get a key and learn instructions and have a beer. Then we will rush home to catch last night’s premiere of The Blacklist. Yep, we are all caught up! It’s great to be up to speed, but it sucks waiting a week for a new episode. #firstworldproblems

Tomorrow will be an early swim (blah.) and hanging out with Dawkins the pup. I actually just found out I won tickets to a local fall fest in the afternoon, so I guess we are stopping by there. Tim is on antibiotics because he is still sick, so I hope he can drink, otherwise I may be drinking for both of us. Oh, and apparently, there is a big Notre Dame game in the evening. I may make it through the first half.

Sunday will be the norm, a walk, errands, work and cooking. Tim has gone back to making butternut squash soup for me as part of my lunch during the week and it is seriously the best thing ever. I am so obsessed. I look forward to it everyday.

And next week is my doctor’s appointment :-). Send good vibes. It’s been a long 5 weeks.

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Bottles full of mead

Rabbit, rabbit!

I didn’t mean to disappear, but holy hell, it has been a BUSY few days.

Our business meetings were Monday through yesterday, and they are just long, draining days. The last thing I want to do when I finally get home is anything that involves my brain. The good thing about them is that they are only about a mile from my house, so I was able to walk to and from, which I really liked. I am cursing my former self for always driving to work. I would love to be able to walk these days. (I am not complaining about my 10 minute commute though.)

Alternatively, I realize that swimming and weightlifting are not that interesting to talk about. I am bored. And speaking of that, my doctor’s appointment is in FIVE days. I am so nervous. I feel very sick of swimming. I lack all motivation. The only reason I go is so I don’t get any fatter. I get zero endorphins from swimming. I am only in a slightly better mood when I leave because I am done.

I am so excited it’s October, and it’s cooling down and I am just really ready for fall. The month of September sucked,

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