And sparks will fly in the summer air

An alarm clock that begins with the number “4″ is never fun. But it’s worth it. Seeing the sun rise and being soaked in sweat and riding high on endorphins before 7 a.m. is wonderful. I was covered in dead gnats and dried salt, but I sure was happy.
I’ve felt oh-so-frustrated about a few things lately. I am just tired of batting with my health, being depressed about my inability to lose weight, stressing about things completely out of my control and being at my wits end with something that I can’t disclose here. Most days I just have to remind myself to take it one step at a time. Keep up the healthy habits and chin up.
Do you know what a twee is? I didn’t, but my friend Kaylan emailed me and said “I think we are twee.” I couldn’t stop laughing after I read the article. It doesn’t even make sense, but it sounds much better than hipster. I am not a hipster, I don’t think I am really anything. Except yesterday before noon, three different people in my office made a comment to me about running, so maybe that is what I am. Maybe I am just a runner, which is okay by me. I guess at this point, I should feel like a runner, but sometimes I feel like a total phony and like someone may call me out on it. It’s the best compliment though.
When I got home, I had another medical bill. The dog threw up all over the living room yesterday morning, and as much as I tried to like him, I can’t stand him. And someone stole my debit card number, so I have been dealing with that all morning.
I just kind of need a vacation so badly.

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I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen

Let’s just say the humidity is back with a vengeance. And thank you dew point for being 70. Yesterday’s run was not easy. But it was still a run. Which is better than most things.

I thought it would be fun to talk about my Stich Fix. I had read about it on several blogs, and when Liz told me she uses it, I decided to try it. I am really terrible at dressing myself and I always feel guilty about spending money on clothes. The majority of my clothes are from Target or the clearance rack at Limited. I first signed up for Stich Fix in May, and I was put on a waiting list. My first box came last week, and I subscribed to get them once a month. You pay a $20 styling fee, and receive five items a month. But if you decide to keep something in the box, that $20 goes towards your purchase. You have three days to decide what you are keeping and then you just mail the unwanted items back in an envelope they provide. Easy peasy.


1. White dress- $88

Eh, I didn’t love it, and I don’t do well with white (#messy), and I didn’t feel like the dress did anything for me. Deny.


2. Maxi dress- $88

I put this on and Tim immediately said “NO.” Once again, I didn’t think it was flattering and did anything for my shape. Maxis are tough for me to pull off, and I felt like it was just clinging to my gut. Deny.


3. Shirt -$64 & 4. Jeans – $78

It’s hard to tell, but the shirt is really baggy and just hung on me like a burlap sack. I loved the jeans though. I don’t have a nice pair of jeans, so even though I cringed at the price ($78!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), I though it was about time I upgraded from the Forever 21 ones I bought five years ago. They fit so nicely. Also, I had to cut my face out of this one. It was bad. Deny. Keep.


5. Sweater – $48

At first, I wasn’t sure about this sweater, because of the price ($48), but Tim said he liked it, and then when I texted my mom the pictures, she said “I LOVE that sweater!” so I decided to keep it. It’s super soft and light. I think it’ll be perfect for fall. Keep

I think it’s pretty cool and helpful to the fashionably-challenged. I am definitely going to keep receiving them for a while.

 Is this fun? Should I stop posting photos of myself? Why do you read my blog? Do you like running? Do you think its too hot out? Do you prefer winter? Should I run a fall marathon? Did you see This is 40 because Tim and I watched it on Monday and I thought it was pretty funny? Why do bloggers ask questions at the end of their posts?

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We’ll never feel bad anymore

Yesterday, I had my follow-up with my GI doctor. We now have the results of all tests, and nothing is coming back positive. He told me I have IBS (DUH.) and to come back in three months. I am so disappointed right now. I haven’t felt right in two years, why does he think I may magically feel better in three months? I just wish someone could help me. I want to feel normal. I don’t want to have near-constant stomach pain and be nervous to go out to eat and be constantly bloated. Ugh.

That put a damper on Monday, but I did get to leave work early, so that was nice.

My friend Jim emailed me this yesterday.



One foot in front of the other, I suppose.



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And I can’t break away from this parade

What a great weekend.

On Friday, Tim, Liz and I walked over to Lindsey and Cass’ for happy hour. We hung out there for a while, taking a break to walk over to the food trucks. I was not impressed with the selection, but I was able to deliver Tim pulled pork, so at least he was content. It was good to see everyone and to chill for a bit. I tried the Sam Adams Blueberry Lager, which I enjoyed.  We didn’t stay too late, which my body appreciated.

Saturday, I ran some miles while Tim went fishing. I normally don’t eat before I run and am fine, but I totally boinked on this run. I had to take a break during the later miles to get some fuel. I was struggling. Luckily, the humidity and dew point have remained low, so that’s been very helpful. After I ran, I did my errands and got a trim. As much as it sucks to pay for a haircut every six weeks, my hair looks so much better. It grows so quickly these days.

I felt bad, but I spent the afternoon relaxing, catching up on magazines and just being lazy. I so rarely let myself do that, so it was nice, even if I did feel like “OMG I SHOULD BE PRODUCTIVE!” Tim and I ended up doing the trail race and it WAS SO FUN. As it turns out, Cathy had planned to do it with her stepdaughter, so Liz came too. I LOVED it. It was hard but such a great time. I could not stop smiling. “Can we do this every Saturday?” I asked. Tim said no. We stuck together for the whole four miles, and finished in 39 minutes, which I was proud of. The trail was hard. It was the perfect way to spend a Saturday night and I just remember feeling so happy. I love running, and I love people who run. One guy had a shirt on that said “I run therefore I am.” I want it!


After the race, we were invited to take a dip in the creek, but it was way too cold. Tim and I said our goodbyes, showered quickly at home and then drove over to the Backyard Bash. My boss had given us tickets, so it was free food and booze for us. It was okay, we didn’t really know anyone, and I had to wait a half hour for pizza, so I was really cranky (I was hungry!). We hung around until 10, then bailed to go make food and watch a movie.

On Sunday, I did some easy miles, then Tim and I went to Costco, where I begrudgingly spent $530 on a new laptop. Groan. But, it’s done. After that, I met Sloane, Nadya and Alissa for some pretzel beers and then spent the evening hanging with my roommate.

I just love running and am so happy to be able to do it. I am sad its Monday.

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Let’s end thsi call and end this conversation

Good morning, sunshines.

Of course I am in a good mood. It is Friday. My second favorite day of the week, as of 5 p.m.

Last night, I had a kickball game in which we sucked pretty bad and I played pretty terribly. I had forgotten how awful I am at team sports, and this was a friendly reminder. I just lack basic coordination, and kicking, throwing and catching just aren’t things I can do.

Oh well.

Yesterday, I also got my Stitch Fix! I even took pictures of everything I got so I would have something to talk about here next week. I really like the idea since I struggle so much with dressing myself.

Tonight, my friends are hosting a happy hour at their place, so that’s where I will be. It had originally been a Beer Mile, but that was postponed. I was sort of disappointed, because I had so much fun last time we did one, but hopefully it will be rescheduled soon.

Tomorrow, I plan to go for a run, get a haircut and run errands, and then Tim and I are probably going to do a trail “race.” It’s called a race, but it sounds more like a trail fun run, because there isn’t any timing or prizes (minus first place). We both have wanted to get into trail running, so this seems like a great opportunity to check it out. Plus, its at night (6:30), so hopefully it’ll be a little cooler. Actually, the lower humidity and dew point this week have been so awesome, and much appreciated. Anyway,after the run, we have tickets to the Backyard Bash (My boss gave them to me), so we plan to swing by there and have a few beers, eat some pizza. I am really looking forward to tomorrow. Running, pizza and beer!

I am also going to look at laptops this weekend. I plan to just buy an inexpensive one to use for freelance work. As nice as it’s been to use a fancy-pants (ok, not really) Mac, it’s kind of a pain to share a computer.


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Now I’m falling asleep to forget you

The last time I set a PR was on January 5, 2013, during an 8K. It was my first-and only- 8K, so I didn’t think much of it. My time, 35:34 was unimpressive to me, and I remember being really annoyed because the course was long. (It was- this was not me just not running the tangents.) Little did I know that would be as fast as I would run for a long time.

About a month later, I began developing terrible cramps in my calves when I ran. And since then, running has been a struggle. Add in the health problems I’ve been experiencing as of late and running doesn’t always go how I would like it to.

I didn’t really know what to expect last night. I ran seven miles at lunch and felt okay, not great, not terrible, just a little creaky. I took Tim’s iPod and he has roughly 17 songs on it, only four of which I knew (“Fat-Bottomed Girls,” “Hate Me Now,” “Guerilla Radio,” “Get Lucky”), so I went back to Pandora pretty quickly.

I started to get really nervous after work, I did some hip stretches and then ran an easy two miles to warm up. I made my way to start. I had to wait a while for my heat, but once my age group lined up, I really was regretting signing up. But, too little, too late. As the gun went off, I immediately got passed by a ton of people. In this case, my inability to pick it up quickly eventually helped me. I hit the first quarter-mile in 1:30 and the half in 3 flat. Then, I just focused on passing people, and I was flying past a ton of runners who went out too fast. The thing about the mile is… it hurts and its 100% effort. I passed the third-quarters sign at 4:37, and I finished in 6:17.9.




A shiny new PR. By nearly 20 seconds.

As I’ve said a million times, the mile is not my strong point. I know a 6:17 is nothing to brag about (and please don’t think I am!), but for me, that’s my fastest mile time ever.

Not two years ago. Not three summers ago. Last night.

And, strangely enough, that was good enough for third place in my age group (the top two were sub-6, so there was clearly a large gap). So, I have a new medal for my collection. Naturally, I missed them calling my name and getting to go get it because I was getting a beer. Gary had to come get me.

Am I back? Nah, not 100% yet. But this was a nice confidence boost that I am hopefully well on my way.

And then I drank 1,000 ciders in the beer tent because that was totally necessary.





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I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough

I am running the mile tonight simply because I like it after the fact when I am guzzling cheap beer in the beer tent. I am not a sprinter, never have been. I am sure if I added some 200s, 400s and 800s speedwork into my runs, I could probably get a little faster, but I prefer to just run and not think about it. If crossfit endurance still existed, I would be back there in a heartbeat sprinting those loops I have memorized, but alas, I run solo these days. I am happy Liz will be there, and I am sure I will know a few other randoms here and there. It’s not supposed to be too hot, which should be helpful. I just hope I don’t embarrass myself. I ran the same amount of mileage this week as normal and if all goes as planned, I’ll have nine miles done by the time I get to the starting line.



Over the weekend, I started having this problem with my iPod. After about 10 miles on Saturday, suddenly, this woman’s voice started announcing the song I was listening to, the artist and the playlists I have on my iPod. This happened several times in one song. It is seriously the most annoying and frustrating thing ever. I switched to my phone’s Pandora for the rest of the run. Once I got home, I googled the problem and did all the recommendations that other people suggested for the issue. On my trek to/from Philly, it started doing it again randomly even though I wasn’t even touching the iPod. For example, I would listen to four songs with no problems, then all the sudden the woman would come back on and then the song would start skipping around. It is so annoying. Then, on Sunday, it worked fine during my run. I don’t think it did it all.

Yesterday, it. would. not. stop. I reset my iPod. I plugged it into computers. I did anything and everything. I got SO mad, I threw it into the grass and now the off/on button is stuck and IT IS STILL FUCKING ANNOUNCING THE SONGS. I give up. I am SO mad. The good news is that I was so mad, I don’t even remember running. I listened to Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch Pandora on my phone instead. It was overcast out, but the dew point was very high, so it was very swamp-like. Luckily, the temperatures weren’t too hot, so it wasn’t bad. I just wish MY GODDAMN IPOD WOULD WORK.

I am not having luck with technology lately. That’s a computer, iPod and iPhone in a month. However, the laptop and iPhone were not my fault, and I only threw the iPod because I was at my wits end. I said many curse words. Ugh, so frustrating.

I think I am just going to have to suck it up and buy a cheap laptop and an iPod shuffle this weekend. lol money.

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